I've been in burnout mode like the rest of you lately. I've been so burned out, in fact, that I haven't even bother to post about how burned out I am. I think what did it is that I started playing over at the D+X Institute. It's a lot of fun, but I didn't realize how much energy it would take. I need to email them and apologize for disappearing also.
I have a great half-finished picture story in the works that was so long I decided to divide it into three parts. Perhaps the ambitiousness of my projects burned me out as well. I hope you all eventually get to see it. It's a fantasy about naughty crossdressing adventures in public on a warm spring day.
Another reason I've studiously avoided this blog recently is because I'm going to be freezing my sperm in preparation for going back on female hormones. In order to do this, you have to abstain from ejaculation for a little while. Now, being sexually frustrated for some reason sends me deep into femme mode. The longer since I've had an orgasm, the stronger the urge to be a girly girl. When the time comes, I plan to go in to the sperm bank dressed to the nines - skirt or dress, strappy sandals, nail polish, makeup, purse, fake tits, the works. Can't wait to find out the reaction I get to that. Then they'll put me in a little room to jack off into a cup. I'm sure it won't take long. Hopefully, the crossdressing will maximize the amount of cum I ejaculate, leading to better results. I might even bring an aneros, too, for some added anal & prostate stimulation. Can't wait!
Once I restart the hormones, you might see a change in this blog. It will be interesting to see how or if the content changes. I'd love to hear your speculation about what I'll be blogging about once I have the essence of female existence coursing through my brain.
I might even lose interest in this blog altogether. To be honest, it might be a relief to get the masturbation monkey off my back - even though it feels great, I do waste a LOT of my time obsessively jerking my cock.
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I agree, it will be interesting to see what your blog becomes when you hormonal.
I've read this post three times and I still can't figure out why you are freezing your sperm.
"I've read this post three times and I still can't figure out why you are freezing your sperm."
This cracked me up for some reason. No offense. I'm flattered my blog matters enough to merit re-reads.
Hormone therapy pretty much reduces your sperm count to zero after a period of time. Sometimes permanently, sometimes not. Freezing my sperm means I may still be able to have children one day (with the consent of a willing partner and/or surrogate of course), even though I'll never have eggs or ovaries of my own. It means lesbian motherhood. Or even straight motherhood, if I end up in a relationship with a man, and together we find an egg donor to provide an egg, and a surrogate to carry the fetus to term. I'd be a mom. Sort of. The miracles of modern science.
I'd still never get to live out my pregnancy fantasies, though, that I've had since, oh, about age 10 or younger.
I do wish you the best of luck at finding peace with yourself. I know when I went on hormones and spirolactonin that I was more at peace with both myself and my surroundings. Yes their were some emotional roller coaster periods, but over all it was worth it. I also loved the aspect of being in control of my sex drive, and more importantly watching myself slowly loose its ability to achieve an erection. I was still able to, but it does take a great deal of time. I soon found myself doing more things that I wanted to do instead of surfing for porn and masturbating constantly.
so best fo luck to you, I do hope you find what you are looking for.
danelle
tis may be of interest:
sissytrainer.blogspot.com
What an amazing sudden death? Was all the girlishness just a severe case of winter blahs? I was really indecisive about taking my blog down, but it looks like I got out when the getting was good.
Ha. That's nice. I invite you to go read another blog - there are plenty out there. This one is about fantasies and a few real life stories, illustrated with photos found on the web - photos that I personally find sexy, usually to the point of orgasm. I've never pretended this blog was anything else.
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